log for 2011
Thought of "Deadheading" yesterday evening, while cutting
grass, and it came in the subtle, indescribable way that
indicates that I'm about to experience an acceptance or
rejection. Sure enough, I got the rejection this morning (it
was sent at 1:40 AM last night).
Word synchro: "bookish"; turned up in ledger this morning, and
I took special note of it, For No Particular reason. Then, at
lunch, I first felt the urge not to read the ledger, then
later felt the urge to pick up a catalog of my mom's, even
though it repulsed me. I was flipping through, and toward the
end was a gimmicky sort of book that had a bunch of smaller
books in it. I noticed it, again For No Particular Reason, and
almost turned the page but didn't, and took a second look; one
of the smaller books had "bookish" in the title. Hmmm.
Also, I've been seeing owls a lot this last week, saw them on
a number of cars (stickers, though it didn't look to be a logo
or anything, just several, simple vinyl owls), and then [my
friend] mentioned them in one of her emails. I noted it then,
and she replied with another thing about owls. I noted it
again but still didn't really think synchronicity, until I did
a Duotrope's search to find a receptacle for "Deadheading" and
the random market thing it came up with was a magazine with an
owl on the cover.
Word synchro: "chocoholic"; was in that ugly catalog I looked
through at lunch, then in a Rick Steves' Europe episode I
ended up watching.
Also, I was Compelled to stop at a car lot and look at the
cars there today. While there, I noticed a drink cup on one of
the cars and I took it away. When I did, I Noticed a pile of
french fries beside it, big, thick ones, perhaps from a
restaurant -- uncommon, in any case, of which I'd seen rarely,
and not for a while. Then, tonight, in the same Rick Steves'
Europe, it showed a Belgium cook cooking fries, with gusto;
held one up, and it was the exact same kind I saw at the lot.
Word synchro: "ersatz"; turned up in "Brian" (I was Compelled
to edit it, almost didn't, twice, but ended up doing it), and
then in "Stranger in a Strange Land", first I'd heard the word
in a while; "sundry"; first in "Brian", then ledger; then
"marzipan"; was in "Stranger" when I heard it last night in
the Rick Steves' Europe. Then, "cockhorse", in ledger at
lunch, then "Plane Crash" at night.
Also, I wrote an email to [my friend] in which I said that we
don't know ourselves, and it was in reply to one in which she
said her laptop's screen was blacking out. When I read the
latter, I remember thinking how I'm glad my laptop wasn't
doing that. After writing the email, I started up the
Starcraft II demo, which I'd downloaded weeks before but never
played. In the opening video, the first line was "We don't
know ourselves", and when the video completed, my laptop's
screen blacked out and it shut down. Granted, it shut down
because it had overheated (or so I think), but still, the
screen did "black out".
Word synchro: "atoll"; was in ledger, and then in the first
page of "Stranger in a Strange Land" that I read today,
minutes later. When I read it in the ledger, I took note of it
For No Particular Reason. Then, later, "apparition"; I'd
Noticed it in the ledger this afternoon, For No Particular
reason, and it turned up in "The General", which was released
early because Weird Tales was bought out (so I shouldn't have
even been editing it). Also in "The General" was "incubus",
which I'd thought of randomly earlier today, For No Particular
Had some dog synchronicity today. Started when I was listening
to Seven Mary Three in the gym; one of the songs mentions a
dog, and at the precise moment it did, a dog barked in the
gym, audible through my headphones, when it hadn't barked at
all since I'd been there. As I sat thinking about it, the
moment I thought "dog", "dog" repeated on the CD. Then, when I
got home and went to tear the "dog synchro" note from my pad,
the instant I did so, a dog barked in the distance. I'm going
to look up dog symbolism in a minute.
Also, I watched the rest of "Twin Peaks" this morning. It got
to a part where there's a hideaway cabin in the woods, for
indulgence, and I took Special Note of it, thinking about what
such a thing would be called, etc. Then, at lunch, Dad started
talking about how someone he knew would probably guy a trailer
from him, to use as a "mancave", identical to that I'd thought
about just an hour before.
Word synchro: "pince nez, cloister, and emmenagogue"; all were
in "Deadheading", then in ledger today. Then, that night,
"cloister" turned up again, on a website I happened to visit,
after never hearing the word for I don't know how long.
Was writing an email to [my friend], and mentioned how a
dandelion picture she sent reminded me of fractals. A minute
after writing that, I went to cut down the chipmunk-tail
pictures in GIMP, and when I did, while looking for the
Sharpen tool, I came across the Fractal Explorer plugin.
Also, I got a reject for "5th of July" tonight, when I was
very close to sending out a query about it just last night. I
don't know why I didn't do it, it just Felt Right.
In [my friend]'s last email, she mentioned how she was drawn
to a movie called The Puppet Master (mistook it for Muppet
Pastor). The next morning, I tried to write but couldn't, so I
ended up reading the transcriptions, and in it one of the
questions involved the movie, The Puppet Master.
Also, I saw Honeywell in the transcriptions later, after
seeing it a lot lately. Not sure about this one, could just be
Also, when I opened this log to enter these last two entires,
I was drawn to one at the start, from 10/1/08, in which I
mentioned how I was eating something that tasted "nutty"
(which was flax seed), and then just after read about how flax
tastes nutty. Well, I was just thinking earlier today about
how flax tastes nutty, For No Particular Reason.
Word synchro: "spatulate"; was in [my friend]'s last email,
which I replied to this morning, and then it was in the ledger
just minutes later, that afternoon, in ledger. I almost
replied to the email last night, and thus would've "missed" it
in the ledger (would've been longer apart at least, instead of
back to back), but I felt Compelled to reply to it this
Also, when I went to the allergist's today, while I was in the
waiting room, this issue of Men's Health kept jumping out at
me. I didn't want to read it, since I really didn't like the
magazine or reading anything in a waiting room in general, but
it kept on so I grabbed it. When I opened it up, there was a
detailed article about melatonin in it, when I'd just taken
melatonin last night and was still feeling its effects.
Yielded some interesting facts. Also, at the start of the
article, it had this picture of burning match sticks, big long
ones that drew my attention For No Particular Reason. When I
got in the allergist's office, there was a jar of "Nitrate
Sticks" which looked identical, though that could've
foreseeably been a coincidence.
Word synchro: "initiate" (verb); used it in planning for "The
Witness", as a verb, and then it turned up in the ledger just
an hour later, in the same form. Then, "long-leaf pine", first
in ledger, then in the Bahamas book, though in a slightly
different form (long-needle pine, though I assume they are the
Word synchro: "redound" and "lenticular"; both in ledger, then
in Ra book. Wow. Have to be about the most uncommon words in
my ledgers, and they appeared in the same day.
A wealth of synchronicities today, all occurring while moving
a friend of my mother's to an apartment. First and foremost,
while I was moving this man, to an apartment on Hodges Valley
Road, I remarked, upon turning in, on how the one and only
time I've ever been down there was to help move someone *out*,
nearly ten years ago. As we went down the road and he guided
me to his new apartment, however, I burst out laughing because
I saw what was coming: he led me not only to the building I
had helped the person, previously, to move out of, but to the
very same unit.
Other synchronicities that occurred during this outing: I had,
this morning, by total and improbable chance, while
researching images of "portmanteau", come across an article
about Jim Carrey. I was Compelled to read it, when I never,
ever read such celebrity-blurb-type columns, and afterward, I
thought "All righty then." I remember, after thinking it, how
I hadn't heard the saying in many years, maybe since I was a
kid and saw Jim Carrey's first movies. Well, while out moving
the guy, my helper in this affair said, offhand, "All righty
then." Then, after the first two, while I was driving my
helper and the movee around, we somehow, in a totally
roundabout way, got into talking about murder, and it came up
that an acquaintance of the movee had, once, said "I'm going
to go home and murder my wife," and actually went home and did
so. It's notable because I had just that morning written about
a man on his way to murder his wife. The last could have,
conceivably, been a coincidence, but it was interesting,
Another, which may be nothing: the helper I took to help the
man move today, he mentioned to me, randomly, an herb called
K2 that he smoked and got high from, which was legal. I took
note of it, though I had no intention of buying the stuff, For
Some Reason. When he first mentioned it to me, however (and
why did he mention it at all? it was so random), my first
though was of the twin towers, K2, of the 11:11 mythos. Then,
tonight, [my friend] emailed me, with a picture of her
fruitcake in Malaysia, before the Petronas towers.
Also, had some other, lesser synchronicity, all from more
random things Curtis, the helper, said. For instance, I
offered to give him a ride home from the grocery store, and he
asked if I needed any food, presumably as compensation, and
when I said no, he said, oddly, "Need any honey?" When he said
that, my first thought was of a honeybear, like the kind my
dad gets (followed by, "Why did he ask me about honey
specifically?"). On the way home, after dropping him off, I
saw a sign advertising "Honeybear Campgrounds", with a
honeybear on the sign (I wouldn't have seen the sign if I
hadn't of taken him home, nor would he have mentioned honey if
Also, he kept on mentioning, randomly, the number 37, which
I've been seeing like crazy lately. It was always obscure and
offhand how he would end up mentioning it, like how he was
charged $37 to replace a book that he had been accused of not
turning in, etc, etc.
Two interesting, spiritual synchros today. I awoke feeling
generally negative and sick, very "depleted" and
"compromised", either because it was Sunday and I had to
repeat church, or because I cut grass for the first time in a
couple weeks yesterday, or a combination of both. Regardless,
I went to church and had to go through the usual rigamarole,
which left me feeling even more drained and negative.
Afterward, however, I had the realization that, when
confronted with such invasive and manipulative forces when in
my fatigued, low-energy state, I end up having to revert to
clumsy, subjective defense measures, rather than just letting
my positivity protect me, shieldlike, due to the lack of that
energy and its systematic effects. I didn't like this, to be
frank, as it left me feeling negative and selfish. I remember
thinking, as I made that connection, that maybe that was one
reason I had to do this again, to learn just that point. When
I got home, I sat down to read some of the Ra material, and
one of the first parts I read, to paraphrase, described just
that process, where someone in a positive state will, when
confronted with negative forces and their attempts at
intrusion, will be forced to become slightly selfish and
defensive, in order to not be consumed and controlled --
though, only so that they may be of further service. A good
selfish, as it were. This directly addressed my experience
that morning, and, if the source can be trusted as accurate,
clarified just how I should perceive it, within an hour of my
having made the realization of the process.
The second synchronicity came later that afternoon, after I'd
been digesting the first for a few hours. After I got done
cutting grass and was pushing the mower back to my truck, it
hit me that selfishness may not always be avoided, and
shouldn't be, if the intent is for that roundabout positivity
I described. As I thought this, "balance" is the term that
came to mind, that I should balance my innate selfishness with
selflessness in order to be of ultimate service. No sooner had
I thought this than I came upon a car in a row and was
Compelled to look at one of its bumper stickers, "Walk in
balance". In retrospect, as I wrote this, I was thinking that
I may have seen the bumper sticker at distance and absorbed it
subconsciously, but that would have been impossible, as I had
the "balance" thought when I was coming up from the other side
of the parking lot, out of view of the row of cars the car was
-- and, also, the car was in a *row*, and small, as to be
invisible until I came parallel with its trunk.
Word synchro: "dorsal"; this one is interesting. It was the
word of the day from Dictionary.com, in my email, and I
noticed it, and checked it even though I knew what it meant.
Then, tonight, while on the computer, I kept trying to access
the internet but my connection was down, as I've experienced
the last couple nights. As a result, I ended up reading the Ra
material for a while, and on just the last page as I was
finishing up, it mentioned "dorsal", for the first time I've
seen it in I don't know how long (except for this afternoon,
just hours previous ...). When the internet wasn't available,
which was strange, I kept having the feeling that there was a
reason for it (I may not have read the Ra material at all
tonight if not for the outage, and certainly wouldn't have
reached the point I did, where the word cropped up).
Also, [my friend] mentioned "devil's snuff box" in her email,
and I immediately knew what it was, a mushroom that I hit
today while cutting grass, and Noticed, For No Particular
Word synchro: "impetus"; this is one of those where the word
came to me at the end of a very long and complex train of
thought that I don't even remember, though the word was very
pronounced, very "important". About an hour later, I came
across it in the Ra material. I think I had seen this one
within the last few months, but the fact that it "came to me"
and then showed up in the book within an hour is notable.
When I went down for coffee this afternoon, I entered into a
whole chain of thought that led to The Simpsons, and
eventually to a certain part of a certain episode, where a
committee is labeled "blue ribbon" and everyone murmurs in
surprise. Funny. Seconds after thinking that, I had to go back
to the laundry room, where a beer box I'd picked up while
cutting grass caught my eye -- for Pabst Blue Ribbon beer.
Was just thinking about "Charlie's Room" last night, and how
it would probably be accepted, and I got the acceptance letter
Yesterday, I'd told my mom that I thought Panera Bread had
emailed me about her rewards card, and I was sincere in this,
as I could have swore I'd seen an email in my inbox from them
within the last couple days. She was going there to eat
yesterday afternoon, so I told her I'd check and see if there
was a reward waiting for her; however, there wasn't. My last
email from them had been almost a month ago. I couldn't figure
out why I thought I'd seen an email from them, as I could've
swore it was within just the last couple days.
Today, I checked my email and found that they'd sent an email
for her (it was sent yesterday).
Had been reading the Ra material, where every session is ended
with "Adonai". I'd been meaning to look it up, and felt
Compelled to, but never got around to it. Today in church, the
pastor defined adonai, as lord.
Daily tarot today was The Empress, and it struck me as odd. I
read some of Book 5 of the Ra material over my breakfast
shake, and it mentioned how a sentence was mysteriously added
to the introduction to the first book, about Jesus' teachings
originally involving reincarnation but having been removed by
Had another Goodwill adventure today. First, while browsing
CDs, I noticed that they had "Weathered" by Creed; while
choosing my MP3s today for my workout, I Noticed the album in
my collection, For No Particular Reason. Then, while browing
the books, I found a book by Junot Diaz, which I'd heard of,
for the first time, just days ago, on "Pulp Modern's"
submission guidelines; while reading it, I thought, "I've
never read Junot Diaz", strongly, For No Particular Reason.
Then, while browsing the electronics, I noticed an LCD
monitor, but didn't want to buy it, since it wasn't worth it;
as I went down the line, I then noticed another monitor for
sale, this one identical to my own, then, a couple spaces
down, another LCD monitor for sale, this one good enough to
buy. I'm not sure what the last signified, but I thought it
unlikely that I would come across the first monitor, which
made me think of my current monitor and what would be required
to replace it, and then an exact replica of my current
monitor, followed by one good enough to replace it. Also found
a Microsoft Natural keyboard there, when I'd almost bought one
weeks ago, but decided not to.
Word synchro: "communal"; was in "Non Compos Mentis", then in
the guidelines of Title Goes Here, where I was submitting it
to. Haven't seen that word for a very long time.